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Colors – Halsey I have no idea what inspired Tyler to tell me not to come to his party, but I remember how it felt. I’ve had very few mental breakdowns in my life, but this was by far the most intense one. Unfortunately, we will traverse through that experience in the next chapter. One…

loml – Taylor Swift I remember how he rubbed my hand, murmuring how one day he’d put a ring there. It felt like my heart was going to explode and I really thought that this was it and the rest of my life was meant to be with each other. It’s weird as the day…

you were good to me – Jeremy Zucker, Chelsea Cutler I still remember waking up that morning with him by my side. September 1st and utterly freezing. I also managed to crick my neck and it hurt for the whole day. I can only imagine what occurred at his precious family dinner, which I was…

You’re Somebody Else – flora cash I remember the way my mascara stained his jumper when I fell apart in front of him. I was shocked by how dismissive he was of our relationship, seven years ago yesterday, and how I felt he didn’t really want me there. Unlike in Fallen Through, I felt it…

death bed (coffee for your head) – Powfu, beabadoobee I wasn’t even angry when he told me I wasn’t going to be introduced to his family. I was so disappointed and out of negative energy to give. I was emotionally exhausted and even though it was more bad news, I just couldn’t fully process another…

I’m In Here – Sia The dream sequence in this chapter was a real nightmare I had in April 2020; albeit it was about an old friend instead of the real Tyler. At the time, I kept a journal by my bed and wrote it down straight away before I forgot. I do remember him…

Hallelujah – Jeff Buckley This was a song he used to sing at the top of his lungs at gatherings. Half drunk, fully high, his arms around my shoulders and his friends while we belted out this ballad. I remember when he described me as the devil. “Matthew” was trying to talk to him while…

Burning – Sam Smith I scrolled through my Fallen Through playlist for a while trying to find a song that fit this chapter, but I struggled today. It’s the first time that he broke up with me, and as there are still twenty chapters of the novel remaining, it’s clear that isn’t the end of…

The Ice Is Getting Thinner – Death Cab for Cutie I remember discovering this song and falling in love with it in the Summer of 2016. I was late to the trend of Gossip Girl and only got around to watching it after my senior year was finished. I managed to get to the Season…

Tolerate It – Taylor Swift I had a list of about 10-15 songs that had been “pre-allocated” to chapters, and Tolerate It was one of them. It hits the nail on the head. I look back at eighteen-year-old me and wish I could give her a hug. After getting out of a physically abusive relationship…