I Don’t Believe You – P!nk.
I remember initially thinking that this wasn’t permanent; “oh well, he’s blocked me again but he’ll be back.”
This time, he never came back, and that was very hard to believe. I found out what happened through the real Matthew, and it was truly devastating. I couldn’t believe I’d been cut out of his life like a tumour with no goodbye. I got nothing, and it took years for me to come to terms with it.
All those promises he made me he fell through on. He promised the world and let me down with no remorse or care. I was shattered and still expected him to come back… But he did. Twice. We will talk about this at a later date.
I especially related to P!nk’s grief in this ballad; not believing the lover who had destroyed her because of words he promised her in the past. I’ve been there; but you said this—but you promised this—how did this change overnight? The last message you ever sent me assured me that you loved me and couldn’t wait to see me again.
I’ll admit there were a few tears reading this chapter again; the grief consumed me and those feelings were raw and real. It hurt then and it still hurts now despite all of the healing I’ve done since that day.
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